St. Paul wrote that one should come out of the darkness and put on the armor of light, to live in Jesus. For years, decades, I have struggled with the meaning of living in Jesus. I know that I have wanted to do this, I certainly have professed that this is what I try to do. But still, I haven't gotten it completely.
This morning, I visualized myself putting all of my concerns and worries in boxes, placing them on a tray and laying the tray at the feet of Jesus, an offering, the sacrifice of all these things and an mind open only to him. I don’t know what he did with that tray and I don’t know what he will do with me. But I give up. I can no longer find the will to commit to the world and be so into it that I can not see anything else.
God, you can do anything. Please bring me into harmony with myself, that is all I pray for, bring me into harmony with myself and into your light. Nothing else matters and nothing else will work. I am committed to the belief that God’s will can work in me.